Merry meet reverend gabrielle. Ive always believed that to minister, all you have to do is simply show that you care about others. It starts with your friends and family then goes to neighbors. You should make sure that your own basic needs are taken care of first such as housing. In fact, you can use your apartment for small gatherings of you and your friends where you simply let them know that your an ordained minister and that if they need someone they can trust to talk with, then you would be willing to listen. Thats an important form of ministry right there. Simply lending a non-judgmental, non-biased ear to those in need of a good listener. Then later, once youve established your reputation as a universal life minister then you can worry about having a congregation and you dont need fancy shmancy trappings and such to have a good church because any good church is defined by the person doing the ministering and those who come to you. Blessed be and good fortune to you and your ministry. Merry meet adventurer. I believe that your god chose to continue to have you live so that you can continue to minister to those in need here on earth in whatever capacity they need you to minister to them. I hope and pray that you continue to recover and that you regain your faith not only in your god but in yourself as well. Merry part and blessed be.