Dear Holy Father,
I have sinned. I am sinning. I don’t know why this temptation is here and why things are so hard if you are the one who sent me back here to do your work. I am confused. I am lost. I want to hide, even just for a little while. I do not know who I am. I do not know how I got to this place. If you sent him to take me away from all of this and do your work elsewhere, then let’s please get on with it. I can’t do anything where I am as it stands. My heart is breaking, Lord God. I cannot hear you or the Holy Spirit like I used to. I am no longer a Proverbs 31 woman as I once was. I am lost. I follow instructions like a robot. I just want to go home. I want to see Maya. I am not doing what I am supposed to be because of so many distractions. Please help me help myself. I am so lost. I beg for the direction that I can actually follow. I stood in your house unworthy to be there. That may be the biggest sin of them all. Nobody really understands why it is so bad. I’m too ashamed to tell anyone. I am giving up, Father God. I need your help to carry on as you want me to. I just want to please you, and I am failing in every way possible.
It is in your Holy name that I pray for forgiveness and guidance.
Amen