Stormson

Just a quick update... Havent had time to be on here allot lately.. They ARE gonna put her under the knife after all... the 11th. I ~guess~ thats a good thing... Get it OUT of there... Hopefully, once and for all. Its bad cos that means its going further, faster then they had anticipated, and they dont wanna fool around with it... But if they can end this now, then so be it. As for me... They're worthless ** of a mom is back in the picture and doing EVERYTHING that she can to turn my little girl against me... And it seems to be working to some degree. I dont understand that at all.. i mean, she abandoned them.. And NOW she comes back talking ** and telling outright lies...the woman has some SEROUS issues. I may just go home. I dont WANT to... But my little girl JUST doesnt NEED this crap right now... And like it or not, that woman IS they're mom... Or at least she gave birth to them. She knows.. Or at least she should.. that I am only a phone call away, day or night..If she needs me, or even just wants me here, I will be (almost) instantly. But I am very afraid that this crap between me and her mom is just too much for her right now... Her mom doesnt seem to care, but I wont risk ANYTHING that may make things worse... Its a hard choice to be forced to make... But I will do whatever is right for my daughter, first and foremost... And it doesnt seem that my ex is gonna pull up stakes THIS time... Yet. Anyway... I appreciate all of you're prayers and well wishes... And I hope you will continue to hold her in you're thoughts and prayer or meditations... Thank you guys so much! Even though it SEEMS to be getting worse, I truly believe that, in the end, she will be ok because so many sent her the love she needs to heal....

Thank you guys... She can use all the help she can get right now.... As for understanding.. yes, I suppose thats WHY this angers me so much. Its not that I think my child should be any more special then anyone else... And cancer is a risk for all... Its just that the astounding level of unfairness of the universe, god, what have you, is completely beyond my understanding... Or ability to submit to.. at the moment. I mean.. I see SOOOO many youngsters these days totally WASTING they're lives... Some acting barely above the level of animals (another story), and having the whole world handed to them... Blessing upon blessing heaped upon them. Then there is this child who has worked SO hard, for SO long... She did everything "right" and THEN some... Only to have it all ripped away. She DESERVES better. Not because she's mine... But because she's EARNED it. Thats whats so hard for me... But then, this isnt ABOUT me. Even though my own anger would taint any prayers I would send right now, I am still a FIRM believer in the power of faith and prayer. I still believe that more then one person praying multiplies those prayers, geometrically. So I know deep in my heart that you're prayers well wishes are being heard and are helping... That makes me feel better, and I know it will eventually help to heal her... And she WILL heal. So I truly thank all of you, as you are a part OF that healing. Its early... And I AM thankful for that... Though, this sort of cancer can spread and turn bad pretty quickly at times.. Still, its early enough that they are going to at least try the chemo before they start ripping things out. She WILL live. I HAVE to believe that. But I fear for what sort of life she will have now... Her future is pretty well ruined. Even if the chemo works and they dont have to take the ovaries, chances are high that she will never have a child now... And her chance to get an education and a decent job is history as well... Eh... Pretty ironic... Given what you and I have been debating lately bro...

Thanks guys... I'm having a pretty tough time swallowing this one... Course I would never let her know that... Im not sure if I will be able to bring myself to pray for her or not... I suspect, that in the end I will because its for HER sake... As for MY relationship with the Almighty... Well.. I think it will carry this strain for a very, very long time... LOL.. thing is.. SHE seems to be handling it all VERY well... Much better then me, thats for sure. Of course she's concerned and all... And bummed about school... But her attitude, at least seems, like its just all in a days work for her... Amazing.... Just amazing...

If Lemmi and God got into a wrestling match, who would win??? What´s the use in crying for help... If no one hears you're screams... No one hears you're screams... No voices in the sky.... Confusion blinds the eye....

My oldest... Actually my step daughter, but I have raised since diapers, even after her mom abandoned me, her and her brother. She has always been my daughter in my eyes.... And because they're dad is scum, I have always been only father they have ever known.... i love her, very, very much. My beautiful, brilliant little girl pulled herself up from NOTHING... We are a very poor family, and I have always been a very poor man... She came from those meager beginnings, while others her age are sitting around on they're backsides, doing drugs, refusing work, mooching off of family, etc, and got a job... THEN got herself a FULL scholarship to one of the most prestigious universities in the nation... A school i could NEVER have even dreamed of sending her to. Got married to a great guy.... Was planning a family.... Whole life ahead of her... Etc. For all of her hard work and effort, all her goodness, kindness, intelligence, NOW, god has seen fit to reward her with ovarian cancer. She could DIE. At the very least, her plans for a family are gone forever... And so her is future. She, of course, lost her scholarship, as she HAD to quit school in order to take care of herself (starts Chemo in a couple weeks)... I cant even BEGIN to tell you all how pissed off I am. I would pray for her myself... But I can tell you, God has ~NO~ interest in hearing what I would have to say to Him right now. He has ALWAYS had a VERY nasty habit of killing the women that I love in my life... And though I struggled with it, I remained loyal through it all. But THIS.... This is DIFFERENT... She isnt one of my lovers, this is my CHILD... I really dont know HOW much He thinks one man is supposed to bear... But for MY part, I may well NEVER speak to Him again... I just dont KNOW right now... we'll see. ~Shakes head~ If you're prayers can do her any good, I would certainly appreciate them...

Eh.. Living, as I do, with what amounts to a death sentence (dont we all!? LOL), gives me a somewhat unique outlook and world view at times.... It also forces me at times to reflect on life, and death, and the human condition in general... Some of you actually believe that we come from monkeys... I dont... But whatever. IF we do, and we are evolving... Well, HOW far have we really evolved??? How do we answer that question, WITHOUT ego getting in the way? For my money... If we are just talking monkeys, then we REALLY havent come so very far from the days of living in trees and slinging feces at one another... We STILL live in chopped up trees.. And yup, we are, as a race, still more then happy to sit around and sling poo at each other all day long, we just do it on CNN now... Lets see how far we've come- Matchbox 20... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSbz9su2jUg

Wow... that totally blows SWC.... I hope ya feel better soon.... Dont sweat the painkillers, I been on all of em over the years and Vicodin\Hydrocodone really arnt all that bad.... The ol' lady (ex?) has been on them for years and they'll be writing me a full time scrip as soon as I actually GET to the doc...When they start handing out things like Demoral, Morphine and Oxy's thats when ya know you're in serous trouble.... LOL... Ya beat me to it, but I was gonna point out that they DO still eat unruly ponies in some cultures... Thank God (or Goddess if you prefer dearheart), that the young'uns are ok and you didnt get hurt worse... I'll keep you all in my prayers... And will be happy to dig through my recipe database a bit if you like?

Here's the story of the Hurricane.... Couldn't help but make me feel ashamed to live in a land Where justice is a game.... Dylan... http://vodpod.com/wa...dylan-hurricane The vid's cut a tad short... For a mp3 with no vid; http://www2.mp3raid.com/search/download-mp3/159060/bob_dylan_hurricane.html Ya have to click "I read and understand" and do the capta thingi....

Wow... Most very excellent for sure!

Heavens so far away.... Black roses and Hail Mary's, cant bring back whats taken from me... I reach to the sky, and call out you're name.... And if I could trade, I would. Gone away... The offspring:

Stunning.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=md8VDETzoFY&NR=1

This may be my last post in this for (hopefully) short time... So I had better make it good! Live every day knowing that it is the TIME to celebrate... For tomorrow we all may die. Stand and fight my brothers and sisters... NEVER forget to live by you're hearts... And build a fire... A thousand miles away... To light my long way home.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5lrL0mzlYg

In answer to Fawzo's scientist who has discovered grass... Dont step on the grass Sam.... Steppenwolf

Thats cos "This aint the summer of love"... ƾ BOC ƾ

Hell yeah! You guys rock... If you ever "Head East", we'll have to throw a party... Though, "There's Never Been Any Reason"; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyoknbvXlwM

Hail Mary, full of Grace, The Lord is with thee, Blessed art thou among women, And Blessed is the Fruit of thy Womb, Jesus, Holy Mary,Mother of God, Pray for us sinners, Now and at the hour of our death, Amen. Let it be- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YBPFvp750sc

I'll see the end of this new year out... Or I wont... It really isnt up to me... All of us.. every one of us.. Could die tomorrow.. or today. If I happen to not see this coming year out, I want all here to know that I love them... Those long time peoples who know and understand... You truely have been, and will always remain, a true and honest part of what I consider "family"... I have had the chance to meet many of you in person and I feel that I am better for it... I intend to meet many of you before I go, but if it turns out that the Great Father chooses not allow me to stay that long then please know that I would have liked to have met you too... And know that, like it or not, this "crotchety old bastard" will STILL be here either way... LOL http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EsUM7V6Ku_8

This is also the day that I remember my dead... One of the most important among them is my long dead motherland.... Almost NO ONE today understands the truth of America, even less today understand the truth of those who fought and died in the attempt to keep Her law... But I do. "History" is written by the victors... sadly enough HISTORY is lost that way... Even the man in black sang about it... Am I the only one who thinks that he should be canonized (made a Saint)?

Hehe... I REALLY should get drunk\high more often.... When I do, he actually makes sense to me... Thank you Louis.... Happy New Year my ULC family... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQk2LtK680w&feature=PlayList&p=A0A1EEEFEE01DD18&index=2&playnext=2&playnext_from=PL

And while I'm on the rat pack... And being the day that it is... It was a very good year....

RS- I dont think that Joe is ~WITH~ anyone... Not much talent of his own ya know? What I do know is that he hunts down and squashes ANY non royalty garnering copy of his childrens talent.... Guess he never realised that a low quality copy over the net will generaly lead folks to buy the higher quality CD... aside from being greedy as hell, he apparently isnt too smart either... ~Shrugs~ Today's offering- The line forms on the right dear... Now that Mackie's back in town... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dDs_N3kGQk&feature=PlayList&p=433CBD87CA8E4B72&index=0&playnext=1

Though I am known as a staunch supporter of free speech, this saddens, offends and outrages me greatly... It seems that some abuse our wondrous and sacred freedom of speech in order to do JUST that... especially those who HAVE nothing to say. Had this been written about Mohamed's virgin bride, or about the Mother Goddess, or about the Jewish patroness Sarah, or ANY other religion's most sacred female, it would never have seen the light of day.... Just fine however to poke fun at OUR most Holy Mother...A sad and disgusting, though all too commonplace, example of anti-Christian bias.

Ravenstrikes- Its because Joe Jackson is a money hungry pig... He always was, and thats why he pushed (forced) the younguns into the show biz to begin with... Of course, that gave us some great talent, its just a shame how he treated them and how he pulls crap like that.. As for my next contribution... Every once in awhile, God pulls my out of my funk long enough to remind me what beautiful, Big Country I have around me... http://www.dailymotion.com/video/k3ORNEvgwdD2Cj73YW And that it truly is a high quality (HQ) Wonderland! (warning- Wonderland vid is HQ, and may be slow for some, VERY slow for dail-up... Still worth trying of ya have broadband)

Its been the Worst Day Since Yesterday...But I like Flogging Molly...

What if God was one of us? Just a stranger on the bus... trying to make His way home... One of my very, very fav, fav songs bro...