Stormson

Thanks eveybody... Spent most of the week in bed, but have been getting up and around more and more...Still in pain, but less every day... I think its gonna be ok if i can just get back to work in the next couple weeks or so...

Now THATS interesting??? Better how bro? These docs got me basicly thinking that if I so much as look at a germ I'm a dead man.. LOL

Eh... for those who may have noticed my sudden disappearance (this time), I just got outa the hospital after about 8 days... Turns out I had an ulcer about the size of a quarter that I didnt even know about.... It busted (ruptured). During the doc taking out that part of my stomach, the spline went all to hell and he couldnt get it to stop bleeding, so long story short I'm now minus one spline and half a stomach.... Plus having the pipes reworked into what amounts to the same thing as a gastric bypass... Woohoo... Fun times.... Could use any thoughts. prayers, rikki, etc,. This is some seriously painful stuff and can use all the help I can get... Thanks

I think.. maybe... Its time again. LOL.. You know The Band is a bunch of Canadians right??? The fight for FREEDOM knows NO boundaries...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5zNK--DUDg http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaqH3v31X4w

What happened to Sunday night chat??? Second sunday I've had (temporary) net and no ones on.... Did they stop it again?

sorry i havent been bacj for awhile,,, alott going on and im offline again... Got caught tethering my phone to my lappy and using too much unlimited bandwidth... Thank you all though from the bottem of my heart.. And ill be back on soon i hope...

It does Mark, and thank you... Tabby was one of the rare few. Some hated her... Most adored her... Some did both. But no matter what side of the fence you where on, no one EVER came away without being touched by her in some way... You simply could not meet the woman and NOT have some opinion,or be effected by her in some way... She will be missed greatly, and she will certainly be remembered by all who knew her...And that thought does indeed make me smile.

Thanks guys... Im still having a pretty hard time of course... But I'm making it. At this point im going through the whole "try not to think about it.. dont face it" thing... Which of course JUST doesnt work. Keeps popping up.. just out of no where ya know? Almost no rhyme nor reason to it... Watching TV and blam.. washing dishes and blam... walking across the floor and blam...Thinking about her. Its like being crushed by a ton of brinks.. Over and over and over again... Shakes head. I have been through this before and know the stages and what I'm facing and why... But this time just seems so much DIFFERENT somehow. Maybe because I was so directly responsible for her and I feel like I let her down... Maybe because of the intense emotional connections we had with one another, both good and bad... Maybe cos the end is so very, very near now and I wont be able to see it through with my beloved partner... I really dont know... But I know that my life is very much less then it was, and I know that the effect of her loss is very much a part of my every waking moment.. And probably will be for whatever time God forces me to stay here on our little blue rock in space. I cant understand why, since shes so very much a part of my waking life, I dont seem to dream of her? Seems I should be able to...

Fawzo- I have been told that she is... "Fine' i mean. I hope thats the case.. Thank you old friend Dan.. She may have been... She was on a plethora of medication as well though, and I think that had allot to do with the mood swings as well... God how i loathe big pharma... To 'na-... Wonderful prayer! Fitting for all times, both good and bad... Thank you! I'm offline the next couple days, but I truly thank all of those praying for her... She honestly does deserve it... I'll be back as soon as i can be...

Thanks guys.. it means allot ya know? Kingfisher, that was absolutely beautiful! I really dont know what else to say. i am completely crushed and devastated by her loss.... But i will go on as I always have... I will survive... and honor her and pray for her soul, every day. I will miss her and wish that the world where a better place, with her still in it. I will question and receive no answer... I will kick and scream and have no answer there either. I will hurt and God Himself will be unable to sooth it... But I will go on. And maybe... Just maybe... One fine spring day, I will see her smiling at me again...

As some of you may know, i have had a rather turbulent relationship for the past 3 years with my girlfriend Tabby, and I was offline for some time while I moved out and got my own place. i have actually been back online (sort of) but have been very quiet as I simply havent had much to say.... As of today, its been two weeks since we found her body, and Ive been having a really rough time with the whole situation. There has been rumors and speculations, and the (official) autopsy report STILL hasnt come back, but i have been very afraid that she may have killed herself. This makes four that have died on me through the years (I had been told through the grapevine that Wanda was dead at one time, but it turned out she was just very sick), and if Tabby killed herself that would make two suicides. Sheila Lynn was the other, but I dont think that counts as she had gone from being a bright, beautiful, God fearing young woman just starting collage to being totally schizophrenic in a very short time. I dont believe that was really HER who killed herself and I dont believe that God punishes the real person in such a case. Sadly however, if it turns out that Tabby killed herself, and really meant to, she can lay no such claim. Me and Tabby had a really rocky relationship, and she was like two different people at times, but the good part of her was one of the very best people this world has ever known. The world, as a whole, is simply something LESS then it was, without her.... Frankly, I cant understand HOW God would even wish to have a world that didnt include Tabby in it... Despite the on again off again nature of our relationship, I love her very deeply and I will miss her more then I can possibly say. Please pray for her. Pray that she didnt suicide and that if she did she not have to pay the ultimate price for it. The only word from the coroner so far is that her alcohol levels where "through the roof" and she was also on ALLOT of prescription meds. I like to think that if she really did kill herself that she didnt mean to...That she was expecting me to come charging in and save her... That it was an accidental suicide. Better yet, since i can never have my beloved Tabby back here on earth, I'd like to think it wasnt suicide at all and shes waiting for me in Heaven... Thats all i can write at the moment... And my net is very spotty at best... But I'll be back... Thanks guys.

Who will save your soul? There are addictions to feed and mouths to pay... Who will save your soul? Hey Becky!!! Ya know... I STILL think about ya ass sometimes.. I have NO idea why... How screwed up is THAT??? LOL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWUW2Vcb_-k

So right ya ARE brother,, they ALL kick total ass... i would ONLY correct by adding stevie ya know? No dude,... Hehe.. no 'tom' to it.. its called Timmy cant typre when hes drunk! LOL But.. yes.. for ALL the above.. where God to speak through a Woman,,,, HAND down man... it would BE Gracie... Shes ALREADY a GODDESS... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnCR8kSSmqw

To my very, very good friend who probably wont even see this.. And to my ol' ladies youngest (30)... Who again, will never see this.. I love them BOTH... DEARLY..i always have. But there is an HONORABLE time to step forward and an HONORABLE time to step away.. Thank God for showing me the difference.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2NEU6Xf7lM&feature=related

Hehe.. Hell YEAH brother,, But I still think.. If God where tom come here as a woman.... WHOS voice He bring it through? I still say, Gracies.. hand down,,, JMHO..

The great and true Goddesses of Rock... Feel free to depute me on this if ya like... I honestly dont think ya CAN.. But, please add to it by trying! To me... These are without a doubt the two single most POWERFUL female vocal performances in ALL the known history of mankind... :heartflowers: THE Gracie... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oRKvpZ7PjE Great gig in the Sky... http://www.youtube.c...h?v=UC01eq2Vkg0

The coming darkness is only a few steps away now... YES, he is STILL coming, as I always said he would. Remember boys and girls.. One CANNOT fight the coming of the night by closing the curtains.. The ONLY weapon one has against the darkness is to light a candle... http://www.youtube.c...h?v=7Ooi3KVfWnM http://www.youtube.c...h?v=7Ooi3KVfWnM

And every man knew... as the Captain did too.. twas the witch of November come stealing... Does anyone know, where the Love of God goes... When the waves turn the minutes to hours? I have stopped speaking of my past.. I am ULC now. I am new. But I once had something of a personal tie to this ship... Once upon a time, in a great lake far away... Actually.. As each and every day passes.. I find myself having that attitude about more and more of what i once called life.. I think time itself may finally be disintegrating.. if thats the case, then good.. I always HATED that linear prison... Or I could be going insane.. Hehe, nothing NEW there... Or, maybe I'm dieing... But I ~think~ I'm not the only one who notices the changes,,, So that would tend to discredit the last two... Hmm.. Anyway.. there was a time and place that i had a personal tie to this... I no longer have ties to anything... But, it still sounds good to remember.. Kinda.

Are you paying ATTENTION? The people of the world simply wont stand for it any longer.... the people of the US sure as hell wont. No.. we ARNT out in the streets... Not YET. No we ARNT hanging the judges who betrayed us... Not YET. No we are not executing the members of the FED for mass murder... Not YET. We.. As a people... Are skeptical of ALL things. YOU taught us that. But we are WATCHING... And we are LEARNING. Are YOU? Are you LISTENING to us Mr. Obama? There are one HELL of allot more of US then there are of "you"... Have you heard us YET? "Mr. Obama, tear down this wall!" Do it now, or face answering to Ron Paul as your next President. WE are exactly who we CLAIM to be... WE are Americans... And like your own kinfolk, we are NOT gonna take it any longer... WISE up... MAN up... WAKE up... "Mr. Obama, tear down this wall!" Do it now, or face answering to Ron Paul as your next President. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOqk_q4NLLI

So im a new grand daddy... Again. Cept that THIS time, i have yet to place my hands on him... ALL i have, thanks to the aristocracy, is a picture on my phone. I'm GOING home damnit... I am gonna HOLD my precious little baby boy in my arms and kiss his wonderful little forehead... And i will PROTECT him.. from ALL enemies... Both foreign AND domestic. WE have dropped the ball people... YOU and ME are the REASON this world is in the shape it is in. WE became complacent. WE became lazy. WE gave up morality for a dollar. WE allowed ourselves to become enslaved. WE worshiped our masters for a few pennies on the dollar return. But HE is the REASON we HAVE to change this. Him and every beautiful child like him. "Mr. Obama, Tear down this wall!" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHZ79InLGRY

Who would have ever thought that WE would find OURSELVES in this position??? Well... i did.. and I said as much... for YEARS... But there are things afoot that I DIDNT foresee either... Mr. Obama.. The unexpected uprisings in the Middle East should show you and your masters by now that the people of the world will no longer tolerate oppression. Instead of quietly passing the American Stazi Act (See something, say something, snitch on your family) you NEED to open your eyes to the reality around you. "Mr. Obama, tear down this wall!" Do it now, or face answering to Ron Paul as your next President.