love and compassion

During these holidays I struggled with a painful and deep-rooted family issue. I was called to cease contact with my sister. Seeing what is, rather that what I want it to be, led me to this conclusion. It has caused consternation with my parents, who want me to keep going as it always has, no matter the cost to me. I have been experiencing layers of sadness, anger, and grief over what i have allowed. I want to open my heart to forgiveness and release, for myself, for my family and for this pattern. I want to transform this into love and understanding and healing. While it may not change my decision, I do want to let us all off the hook so that we can all move forward. I find myself stumbling and struggling with this age-old ache in my heart. Thank you for the prayers. I want so much to let go.