If you haven't already read it, there's a book assembled by a slightly famous Deist of a mere couple of centuries ago, who sat down with a couple of bibles, some scissors and a pot of glue. "The Jefferson Bible," by Thomas Jefferson of Virginia. My own teen-aged crisis of faith was brought about by being with Baptists, and the very intense reading that it resulted in -- in the attempt to convince myself that Christianity was where I belonged -- finally forced me to reject it. I simply did not have enough of the right kind of hypocrisy in me to be a "good Christian." I learned that Christianity's dominance in Europe was not due to its "superiority as a religion," but to the superior willingness of its followers to kill or enslave any peoples who would not willingly convert and submit. I learned too many other things to put in such a post as this thread. Good hunting in your seeking, and may your path contain only those rocks and brambles that Deity intends to help you learn.