Why is it that man`s spirit is so fickle? In my life there has been so many people, events, stuff "in-and-out" of my life. Things I held more dear than life itself, swore eternal faithfulness, would have given my life for the person or situation, yet looking back I have totally lost them. Held ideas, philosophies and beliefs with passion, yet now I feel guilty, sad and remorse of whom I have become and all that I forgotten. Made promises I coudn`t keep, betrayed loved and followed mirages. Was it all for nothing? Yes, the wise will say--you have learnt from it, the intelligent will say, you have become more wise, the spiritual will say, it is the path to the Divine, the religious will say, it is the price of sin, the atheist will say, it is life, the ignorant will say, it was of no use and I say --as in the movie "what is it all about Alfie"--for no matter from whichever way I look at it on some days it makes absolutely no sense at all. blessings, Suzanne