Blackowt

I have always been the one that people come to for advice, but people also know my past lol. Many have been receptive to it. The ones who give me the most grief are the ones who try to sit high, mighty, and righteous and aren't living right themselves. People know that I am going to be me and that's what draws people to me. As far as clerical clothes, I haven't but I would probably be a lesser dressed cleric anyways lol...Professional but comfortable.....

lol thank both of you....I wrote this when i was in a low space and yea answers just lead to more questions....such is the story of my life looking for answers so i can ask more questions lol

Trying to Tell Me Something I can feel it in my soul deeply A voice speaking Sometimes I can't Sleep at night And I wonder why A voice whispers "God trying to tell you something" But what? The mystery is intriguing And it leaves me seeking The deeper meaning The truth never realing Lies keep sealing But I feel it in my soul More and more As I grow old And every restless night I sit up wondering why A voice whispers "Gods trying to tell you something" Wish he would say it Release me from this pain But he keeps delaying Or is it me? Not opening my eyes To what he wants me to see And be what he wants me to be My true reality So I cry And I can't sleep at night No longer wondering why Cause I hear the voice whisper "Gods trying to tell you something"

Faith NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT WITHOUT FAITH I'D BE FADED AND IT MIGHT SOUND JADED BUT I'M STILL GONNA SAY IT SOMETIME'S I SIT MY ROOM AT NIGHT AND WONDER WHAT WOULD LIFE BE LIKE IF I TRADED THE DARKNESS FOR THE LIGHT AND I KNOW SOMETIMES I LOSE SIGHT DO WRONG WHEN I SHOULD DO RIGHT I'M NOT GONNA LIE IT'S A HARD FIGHT ALL ALONE IN THIS COLD LIFE I TAKE THE GOOD ALONG WITH THE STRIFE I TAKE THE LORD ALONG FOR MY RIDE THICK AND THIN EVEN WHEN I BACKSLIDE HE KNOWS MY HEART NOTHING CAN I HIDE I LIKE HOW PEOPLE IN THE WORLD STAY TRYING TO JUDGE ME I KEEP IT MOVING ITS ALL HATE CANT NOTHING BUDGE ME I TAKE IT AS LOVE CAUSE WHEN WE SEE THE MAN ABOVE ITS ALL TAKEN INTO ACCOUNT ALL YA SINS WILL AMOUNT TO YA DOWN FALL ON YA JOURNEY YA ACTIONS ARE YOURS ALONE FROM THE CRADLE TO GRAVE YA ERROR PRONE AND AINT NOBODY TO CALL CANT PICK UP THE PHONE SO THOSE WITHOUT SIN THROW THE FIRST STONE ©2011 BLACKOWT PUBLISHING

Sinner's Prayer 2011 SEVEN YEARS GONE YET I'M STILL HERE YES I'M STILL LIVING AND I'M STILL IN PRAYER STILL ON MY KNEES TOLD I HAD PURPOSE FOR MY BEING BUT STILL ITS HARD TO BELIEVE WHAT COULD YOU WHAT FROM LITTLE OLD ME THROUGH ALL MY MISTAKES YOU HAVE YET TO SCOLD ME THERE IS LESSONS TO BE LEARNED THAT'S WHAT YOU TOLD ME ALL I REALLY WANT IS FOR YOU TO HOLD ME I GIVE MYSELF AWAY LORD PLEASE MOLD ME THIS LIFE THAT I LIVE IS REALLY COLD TO ME THE WARMTH OF HEAVEN'S GATE IS WHERE I WANT TO BE BUT FOR SOME REASON I SEEM TO FLEE FROM THEE SCARED THAT I'M NOT WHO I NEED TO BE I PRAY EVERYDAY FOR HIM TO REBUILD ME EVERY NOW AND THEN THE SPIRIT FILLS ME THESE PEOPLE PLAYING TRICKS ON ME CLAIM TO WANT HELP BUT THEY SICK OF ME FAKE PRAYERS THEY OFFER UP FOR ME BUT YOU DON'T HEAR THOSE SO I GO DOWN ON MY KNEES LORD IF YOU DO HEAR ME PLEASE CONTINUE TO ACCEPT MY APOLOGY I KNOW I'M NOT WHERE YOU WANT ME TO BE I KNOW I KEEP RUNNING FROM THEE FAKE CHRISTIANS HOLD ME BACK FROM THEE BUT I REMEMBER THE PROMISE YOU GAVE TO ME OVER THERE ON CALVARY I KNOW THE LAMB YOU OFFERED UP FOR ME I APPRECIATE IT GREATLY I'M FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT TRYING TO GET THERE WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME I SHALL NOT CARE ONLY FOR YOUR JUDGEMENT I'LL PREPARE STARTING OFF FIRST WITH THIS SINNERS PRAYER COPYRIGHT BLACKOWT PUBLISHING 2011

Sinners Prayer 2004 POEM AND PRAYER *BOW YA HEADS* LORD. I KNOW ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE WE SPOKE COULDNT FIND THE WORDS TO EXPRESS TO YOU MY FEELINGS INA WAY UNDERSTOOD AND HEARD BUT YOU KNOW MY HEART AND MY MIND AND AS FAR AS MY LIFE YOU BEEN GENTLE AND KIND COULD'VE GAVE UP AND SENT ME TO DAMNATION BUT YOU KEPT ME HERE SEEKING YOUR SALVATION I KNOW I DONT ALWAYS DO RIGHT LIFE IS HARD AND IM NOT MAKING EXCUSES SO BEAR WITH ME GOD I TRY TO FOLLOW UR PATH BUT SOMETIMES I STRAY BUT YOU ALWAYS BRING ME BACK LIKE A SHEEP GONE ASTRAY IN MY TOUGHEST TIMES I SEE THE SINGLE SET IN THE SAND AND IN MY ROUGHEST HOUR I FEEL THE WARMTH OF YOUR HAND YOU GIVEN ME SO MUCH YET IVE GIVEN YOU VERY LITTLE I WANT TO GIVE MORE THOUGH I KNOW MY FAITH SEEMS FICKLE I STRADDLE THE FENCE BETWEEN THE DAMNED AND THE RIGHTEOUS AND ON THAT GREAT DAY THROUGH THE GATES I HOPE I MIGHT GET I AINT GONNA LIE LORD I KNOW I DO WRONG AND IM NOT GONNA SIT HERE AND SING THE SONG PRODUCT OF MY ENVIRONMENT I CANT CLAIM THAT BEEN THERE DONE THAT LIFE HAS YET TO FADE TO BLACK I SIT IN THE SHADOWS FEARFUL OF YA WRATH AND FROM THOSE SAME SHADOWS I HEAR THE PREACHERS CALLIN FOR MY BATH WASH THE SINS THEY SAY TO ME BUT IM SCARED CAUSE WHAT IF I DONT TURN OUT HOW U MEANT FOR ME TO BE A RIGHTEOUS MAN FALLS SEVEN TIMES AND GETS BACK UP AGAIN SO IM TOLD THE BATTLE IS IN GETTING BACK UP I HAVE YET TO BE SO BOLD SO IF BEFORE I GAIN STRENGTH YOU CHOOSE TO BRING ME THERE CONSIDER THIS MY REPENTENCE FOR MY WRONGS A SINNERS PRAYER COPYRIGHT BLACKOWT PUBLISHING 2004-2011

LAST NIGHT I HEARD MY SOUL CRY COULDN'T UNDERSTAND IT AS FROM BED I RISED MY SOUL IS TIRED LIES AND HATEFUL ONES THAT CRITICIZE DON'T THEY REALIZE THEY CAN'T LIVE MY LIFE THEY JUST ADDING ON TO THE STRIFE I PRAY EVERYDAY TO SEND AN ANSWER CAUSE THIS WORLD IS LIKE A CANCER THOUGHTS TROTTING THROUGH MY HEAD LIKE A DANCER WHAT ARE TRYING TO SAY TO ME BY SURROUNDING ME IN TRAGEDY IN THE DARK SEARCHING FOR THE LIGHT STAY GOING LEFT WHEN HE TRY TO STEER ME RIGHT AND THOUGH I FIND LESSONS IN EACH PLIGHT ITS GETTING KIND OF HARD PUTTING UP A FIGHT I FEEL LIKE WAVING THAT WHITE FLAG TYING IT ALL UP IN A BAG REASONS TO LIVE ARE GETTING FEW AND IM STUCK WONDERING WHAT TO DO I PUT MY MIND DOWN ON PAPER HOPING THIS CLOUD WILL DISAPPEAR LIKE VAPOR EVERYDAY I ASK MYSELF WHY HE HAS YET TO TAKE MY LIFE GOTTA STAY STRONG MY EYES ARE DRY IT'S JUST MY SOUL THAT CRIES BLACKOWT PUBLISHING -at-2011

Hello All...Well a friend of mine (A member of the female Auxillary of the Fraternity I belong to) became a minister so that she could officiate her cousin's wedding. I read and researched and like the doctrine of Universal Life Church and decided to become ordained. Though i didn't really think much about it, as I have been doing more research and reading different posts on the forum, I am coming to the conclusion that I have made the wight decision. I grew up going to catholic school and went to various churches but never really fit in. I was always open minded and questioned everything and that didn't sit to well with those I interacted with. This will give me an opportunity to inspire like minded individuals to openly have a person to come to and discuss our thoughts...Excited about this journey....