Well I finally gave into that annoying feeling this is the path I am suppose to take. It started when I was 4 years old. I would come home from church and want to "preach". Well I kept having that feeling until my Grandfather passed away suddenly around 12-13 years old, then I was at a lost with "religion" I came back into my faith 15 years old (I wasn't gone to long) wanted to be an Evangelist and do revivals no roof, no rent, and no word of "offering" (that is my biggest beef with religion they mention offering more than they "preach" anyways..) I became a Sunday school teacher at the age of 17. Pastor's Granddaughter and I didn't see eye to eye so I left my church, but not my faith. I haven't been back to a church since. I feel I can not trust a church any longer. I had talked to a Father recently and his words sparked something, I assume that spark I needed to allow my "calling" come out, to win the headstrong battle I have been resisting all these years. He had said "that's your problem you put your faith into a man instead of God" I was never brought up in a Catholic church, but he made sense. I was raised Evangelist Pentecostal. I am still not 100% on board with giving my problems to God. I believe we take care of our own problems. I believe we make our destiny. I still believe in some teachings of my youth. But I have grown so much more spiritually since I had left them. I am more in tune with myself. I love the peace I have found spiritually. I believe whole-heartedly in Kharma. Also in do unto others. I have found the balance for myself. And that's what lead me here... that and my Father (Dad) is ordained Rev. way before I was ever born. But this is what has been calling me, this is where I am suppose to be. I finally gave up trying to fight it off, and I feel so much lighter now that I have came to terms and came to my call. Thank you for reading.