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I would like to ask everyone to please pray for me , I lost my son on July 9th 2009 and it will be a sad day. Thank you all.

I submitted this on June 2nd, and I think some members may have gotten the wrong idea about my situation. I spoke of how I have been estranged from my two adult daughters since I lost my 26 year old son back on July 7, 2009, Although I did mention that I had a problem with drugs while my kids were young, I had enjoyed a very good relationship with them both up to the time of my sons death. I babysat all the time for them, and we would do things and go places together. For some reason, my youngest daughter refused to go to my son's memorial service, and would not give us a reason. She had been very close to him and he was very good to his neices and nephews. When she refused to attend the memoial, my husband and I were very upset with her, and we've not been able to communicate since. I'm very sad and have tried to send my grandchildren cards but they always come back unopen, return to sender.

I need some good advice on how to deal with my two daughters. Neither of them are speaking to me and they have refused to allow me to have any contact with my Grandchildren. I am a recovering addict and think I am a good person, but I must admit that as a young mother in an abusive marriage, I was always in survival mode. Unfortunately for my children, I turned to drugs, and of course they suffered. I have tried to make amends for my failings, but they have been hard on me. I lost my 26 year old son, and when my one of my daughters refused to go to the memorial I have not spoken to her since (3 yrs.). I had 5 children, and only my 2 remaining sons speak to me. I have not seen 6 of my Grandchildren in 3 yrs. My heart is broken and I am finding it hard to get on with my life. I now have a loving husband who puts up with my sorrow as he knows how I feel, but a mother is a mother, and its just not the same. If anyone out there has been in or going through a simular situation, I would appreciate some words of advice. Thanks! (If you would like to respond through a PM, that would be OK too.)