Darth Draconis

"I am Darth Draconis, Sith Practitioner, and this is my Holocron, made to serve a multitude of purposes.

To understand what I have become, you must first understand what I once was.

I was brought up by a Christian family, with the exception of my Atheist Father, but I never had faith in the religion I was taught, so I was never a christian, merely a pretender. Faith is one of the few things I am unable to possess, its very definition is distasteful to me: an unquestionable belief/trust in a person, entity, or ideal. I can comprehend the idea of Faith, but it took some time for me to grasp how a person could have faith.

Around the age of ten, I began resenting my families beliefs in the concept of an omnipotent God, at that age I was a very logical person and extremely critical(The logical behavior I displayed at that age has only grown and evolved, I am now a calculating, analytical Sith with a desire for control over myself). As a result, I began experimenting with Magickal practices, wicca, and witchcraft...this was my first experimentation with the Force. I understand Magick as simply another name for the Force. Magick and the Force are one and the same, but Magick focuses on the energies of plants, trees, air, etc. and concentrates on spells and rituals to focus the energy for the desired outcome of a magickal working, it is one of the many aspects of the Force, and it isn't something that interests me any longer. As many people know, wiccans worship multiple dieties, I accepted this for a time, but I soon rejected these gods as nothing more than powerful spirits that were able to be noticed for a short time after their deaths, then worshiped as gods(I believe that after death, there is a possibility of keeping our spirits/souls intact, or our personal Force energy{life Force} will disperse and be dissolved back into the Force).

I then abondoned the magickal practices and began to take an interest in the Star Wars Mythos. I was still ten when I began walking the path of the Jedi, so I wanted to use the power I was now aware of for "good", I lived by morals (implanted into my skull during childhood) that my grandmother lived by. But only months after I started training myself as a Jedi did I realize that the Jedi ways were pure weakness in and of themselves, I was kind, caring, loyal, trusting, even compassionate...and as a result, I was often taken advantage of. I then began to change, so I sought alternate paths. I attempted to live as a Shadow Jedi, but I found their ways to unstructured after only 1-2 months. That is when I decided that I would try being evil(as a Jedi, I believed Sith to be opposite of what I once was, and I believed Sith to be evil), so I began on the dreaded path of darkness. I was malevolent at all times, and I sadistically enjoyed being this way. But, almost three months of being a Sith had taught me something about what it really means to be a Sith. Sith are not evil, we are just considered evil because we are dark beings, but in abandoning morality(which may be considered evil as well), I decided that there was no true good or evil...

So, since approximately the age of twelve I have been a Sith. I will remain a Sith for as long as I exist..."

-Excerpt, Holocron of Darth Draconis