I need some good advice on how to deal with my two daughters. Neither of them are speaking to me and they have refused to allow me to have any contact with my Grandchildren. I am a recovering addict and think I am a good person, but I must admit that as a young mother in an abusive marriage, I was always in survival mode. Unfortunately for my children, I turned to drugs, and of course they suffered. I have tried to make amends for my failings, but they have been hard on me. I lost my 26 year old son, and when my one of my daughters refused to go to the memorial I have not spoken to her since (3 yrs.). I had 5 children, and only my 2 remaining sons speak to me. I have not seen 6 of my Grandchildren in 3 yrs. My heart is broken and I am finding it hard to get on with my life. I now have a loving husband who puts up with my sorrow as he knows how I feel, but a mother is a mother, and its just not the same. If anyone out there has been in or going through a simular situation, I would appreciate some words of advice. Thanks! (If you would like to respond through a PM, that would be OK too.)