PriestessAutumnPenn

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    Autumn The Gray
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    Indiana, USA

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  1. August 30, 2020 I went into meditation to inquire as to if 2 of my friends were interested in Remote Healing. Both kindly blocked me. One feels her condition relieves her from the burden of having children in a violent world. Despite her condition being physically painful, she feels it gives her the advantage of the freedom of that worry. The other feels she is simply too old and there is no point. These experiences caused me to ask myself, "Where is my mind at with fully healing? We all as humans have something in need of healing so what are my blocks?" My answer, "The guilt of doing better than others; the fact I have already outlived most of the people I have loved the most; the fear of being in charge again because both management jobs I excelled at except for disciplining and managing the employees I was supposed to manage; and people from the past who told me I was wothless and would never get anywhere. Although I knew they were lying, I still sometimes allow their words to get in my way." Therefore starting now I am going to work on all of the factors preventing me from thinking I should not fully heal. Be well. --Priestess Autumn Penn
  2. August 30, 2020 For the pendulum exercise, I did not have one; thus I followed Reverend Culbertson's advice to create a pendulum. I used items I had purchased for myself and that I felt had good energy. I know this sounds silly but I ended up creating 2 for this exercise: one from crafting supplies and another from jewelry I had not worn for a long time. I lit sage in seashells. I physically washed the textile items and allowed them to dry. I stood on the North-South line; took 3 deep breaths; swung the first pendulum made of a finger ring and a necklace chain 3 times; and stood motionless. Suprisingly to me, it began to move on the East-South line. I tried the same procedure with the pendulum made of string and a giant turquiose pom ball. It also began to move on the East-South line. I asked 2 easy questions with overt answers. "Is my regrigerator to the right of me?" "Has such-and-such friend been my poetry and musuc mentor for x amount of years?" Both pendulums swung far to the East. I decided to use a table I already had a notepad and a bandana on to better dictate East for yes and West for no. I asked the same questions and again received the same responses. I asked a complicated question because a friend and I fell out: "Were X friend's actions done out of hatred?" The pendulums landed dead center and dropped in between the notebook and the bandana. I consider that as a maybe. Maybe? I decided I did not wish to know more. After this question, I did feel somewhat tired. I will don the "gloves" (as mentioned in a prior lesson for energetic protection) the next time I do pendulum work along with my Ma Kali amulet. Sincerly, however, I had no idea how much I would love this exercise and I feel fortunate to have been introduced to it. Thank you for listening. I hope you all are faring well. --Priestess Autumn Penn
  3. Psychometry Homework August 28, 2020 In regard to the art of Pyschometry, I was introduced to it by an older family member as a teenager when a boy in the neighborhood kept giving me gifts I felt awkward about & I wanted no part of. I was still a virgin and I knew something was wrong. This older family member was never really one to ever take up for me and I was quite shocked with his replies. He advised me to use my own wisdom accepting any gifts from any person because, "Some are traps and snares. Some objects are given to bribe you. Some are given to place you in a spot of obligation." Furthermore, he told me that gifts also should be appropriate and fitting to the recipient; so, if a person knows the receiver does not wear fancy jewelry but instead prefers books, the giver should present the recipient with books. He stated, "Some gifts are also a form of peer pressure to alter a person's true nature." This sound advice has helped me throughout life. There was a time I got into a relationship with a man and he began flooding me with gifts. They were always purple but he knew my favorite color was blue. The gifts even felt funny to me to the touch. One was a watch in an old wooden vintage box. The box just bugged me. I knew it had been somewhere but I had no clue where. The purple shoes had nothing to do with my wardrobe either and I had nothing to match them. To worsen the matter, they had sequins all over them. I wear nothing akin to that. I put the watch inside of its funny-feeling box in a closet and never wore it. I never brought the purple sequined shoes into my home. I wore them if he mentioned I wasn't wearing them while I was a visitor at his house since they were there. A day came when it all made logical sense. I had become close to his young son and his son invited me to his birthday party but also bluntly stated that his mom who his dad hated still would be there. I refused because I wanted no problems. His father and I went to drop the son off. Guess who was donning purple everything? The ex wife. I feel the used, vintage wooden box belonged to her and that he was buying me purple gifts because he associated the color purple with either her or with love altogether. I ended the relationship. I had a collection of mementos (letters, cards, and photos) I had kept for a few decades. I started having concerned feelings about a man who is in my circle of my friends. Suddenly. A friend from the circle messaged me to tell me about that friend, saying he had kind of a very very severe crush going on that I was not picking up on. I had forgotten about my memento collection and found a letter from another friend in our circle and at the end of the letter he had written, "NOW HASTEN WITH CAUTION". It was on bright yellow paper and it had alarmed me. I had asked him what it meant and he had gotten nervous and replied, "Just something my older family taught me". These 2 friends were trying to find a way to tell me that one of the guys in that FB Group was not very nice. It has started to become apparent. I knew something was wrong when I received that bright yellow letter especially since it was the only one that friend had ever written but I did not know what or whom to use caution with. Shall we end with the tale of a healing, kind gift-giver? I was waiting on the bus stop and a man had a bag full of inexpensive but cute rings. He asked me if I would like a blessed ring for my safety and my protection. In his eyes was a warmth and an understanding. He then spoke, "It is dangerous for all of us out here but times are worse for you women. I pray over and bless these rings daily. They are cheap but not so cheap your finger will go green." His laugh was infectious. I could sense a woman he loved had been hurt. Many women passed him by and he asked, "What is your favorite color?" That is when I realized he was more than likely a mambo. His eyes lit up with joy and peace seeing the ladies nervous on the bus stop relax a bit. I accepted a blue one: my favorite color and I cried a few tears and he told me he was praying for my safe comings and goings. I felt peace in a complete stranger. He was an unknown male who was almost 7 feet tall and built like a professional boxer but all I felt near him was the same calm I felt while dipping my feet in the creek as a small girl. --Priestess Autumn Penn I hope all are safe and all are well.
  4. Social Etiquette Essay August 18, 2020 In regard to social etiquette, I feel there are areas in which I excel and there are areas in which I can improve. I am polite and considerate; I greet others with the proper terms of address. When it comes to the foundation of basic manners, I do well. I am not perfect but I am not a disturber of the peace. I have no behavioral problems that create chaos or discord with others. For the most part I am open-minded. I have been around a wide variety of people; thus, I have never judged anyone by what religion they have chosen. My only qualm would be with someone choosing a religion or church that promotes discrimination and/or violence toward a specific group(s) of people. As far as medium-ship is concerned, I have not yet ventured into it to assist others but I agree to be careful with how I go about my practice if I do so. Once a medium approach me, unsolicited, with completely inaccurate information that did not apply to my innate nature at all. I made an attempt to kindly tell her she was mistaken but she began a strong, stubborn quarrel. I do not know what she was out to gain. I opted to smile and go silent. I will not to do this anyone. I have accidentally been the energy-vampire. I did catch myself and I felt terribly guilty when I did. I did not mean to do it. I was experiencing death grief from the suicide of a sibling and I turned into a sudden alcoholic within eight hours and remained in that state for a few years. I was an irresponsible person for a while. I wish I had not temporarily evolved into that person and I wish I could return and not be her. What I learned from this experience is that when a life experience is too heavy, do not bother loved ones with it but go to the professionals. I did go to counseling and to AA and now I am a volunteer online counselor. I feel another way I can make the world more harmonious is to not reply to petty drama. I used to falsely believe I was weak if I did not stand my ground constantly. I learned that some rude words can be completely ignored. I do not need to be sarcastic, snarky, or verbally return the gun fire. There are plenty of small negative daily interactions which can be ignored. Strangers are in a hurry, stressed, tired, ill, grieving, sad, or possibly being mean on purpose. If they are not posing any threat of physical danger, what does it matter,? Sometimes smiling and walking on diffuses the negative energy that was about to escalate into a bad scene. I have seen that play out. I hope everyone is faring well. Peace unto you. --Priestess Autumn Penn
  5. August 17, 2020 Well, I truly love this lesson of the course. I decided to try to design a She ra: Princess of Power headdress. I did not get the paint right. It was a bad paint for the job. I just used a cardboard box, poster paint, glitter nail polish, invisible tape, and a long-armed stapler to execute this design. Alright onward to my Pyschometry and Etiquette writings. May you be well and peace unto you. --Priestess Autumn Penn
  6. August 17, 2020 The first mandala is a coloring sheet I printed off from the internet and filled in with coloring pencils. The second mandala is my attempt at a self-created one. I did not have a compass so I used a roll of tape to trace around to form a circle; I used my box of colored pencils as a straight edge in lieu of a ruler. I was surprised at how much I preferred creating one as opposed to coloring in a pre-made one. I hope everyone has a great day. Peace unto you. ---Priestess Autumn Penn
  7. LOL and interesting. I appreciate you sharing these facts with me. I am now going to research Her. Ty so kindly for your input. May you be well.
  8. Seeing the Aura August 16, 2020 About 20 years or so ago, friends mentioned to me that a Unitarian Universalist church in the neighborhood had opened up; that it had a CUUPS (Covenant of Unitarian Universalist Pagans) chapter; yoga classes; a drum circle; and meditation classes. I went; I loved it. I attended for some time. We had an open lesbian minister there. I never had a single problem with her ever. I did not know her well by any means but I respected her. Some held an uprising against her and she was actually brought against a type of church court to see if she would be able to remain as minister there or not. Amidst all of this upheaval, she was giving one of her last sermons before being dragged into church court. And a white light started to surround her body. I thought maybe it was time for a new eyeglasses’ prescription. I rubbed my eyes. The light grew stronger. I thought maybe my blood sugar had dropped lower than it ever had done before so I quietly slid out and grabbed a bit of coffee loaded up with sugar; used the restroom; and returned. But no she was still surrounded by the white light. I held my stomach to appear as if I were ill. I crept out and I walked the few blocks home. I had never heard of an aura before at this time in my life. I was terrified. I believed I was ill from my occasional hypoglycemia. I was very very very very frightened. The one other issue I feared was although I had never suffered from hallucinations, I have a 1st cousin who does; I feared they had come for me too. In fact, I was so very very concerned that I set up an appointment and went in to be screened for Schizophrenia. My counselor who treats my anxiety disorders laughed when I asked to be screened but refused to explain myself as to why. I ended up with the same diagnosis of anxiety disorders. My counselor laughed and said, “What? Your anxiety had you thinking you had a condition you had zero signs of.” One good thing I can say is I truly believe the UU church minister was on the end of homophobic discrimination and/or she had no ill will toward me and was a white light kind soul to me. I have felt but not seen auras again and feeling them and following my own lead and ignoring the opinions of others has kept me out of dangerous situations. I will explain more later in my homework about Psychometry. Something I have learned also is that one person can be a quiet, kind soul to one person because that person is a soft-spoken, calm soul to them. Sometimes a person acts out of their true nature to protect the self. I feel the minister was backed into a corner, in my own opinion, and lots of the quarrels were due to her trying to stand her ground. In writing this, I mean no harm to anyone. I hope no one feels uncomfortable. I love my 1st cousin a lot and I have no qualms with him or his condition. But we each must set our boundaries with what gates we wish to open and which ones we wish to walk by. And, frankly, I am not willing to try to see auras but I can feel them already. I believe I haven’t seen them again because I politely petitioned the Mother Goddess and the Father God to please prevent me from seeing anything manifest itself in physical form. I will not lie about that. I am required to write up homework on EACH subject. Not that I mind. I enjoy it but this one created some apprehension. That is all. Otherwise, I would have not explained myself re: my feelings about ME trying to see auras. Why? I am worried to offend anyone on accident. Anyone who is proficient at seeing auras or anyone who is beginning to practice seeing auras, do not be dissuaded by me. I read them. I am good with scents and with my hands. Never be dissuaded by ANYONE. We all have our unique and specific gifts; we all have our unique and specific boundaries. Peace and power unto you. Priestess Autumn Penn
  9. Thank you for your input. I appreciate it and it is helpful. I hope you are faring well.
  10. While completing this assignment, I was surprised how much my feelings and thoughts re: colors are linked to the place I grew up; the crops my family grew there; the fauna & the flora I knew as a child & an adolescent; and, frankly; the people I have the most peace with and the people I have the most struggles with too. For example, many people associate the color pastel pink with a more positive vibe. I don't have that association. The earthen hues of pecans, hog-nose snakes, the pond, the hazel of my brother's eyes, chewing tobacco...these browns remind me of my deceased closest of kin whom I had ease with. Green and blue hues always link me emotionally to the green fields, Sassafras trees, the green eyes of my father, blue skies, et cetera. After completing this assignment, I realize the importance of allowing another the power of choice when it comes to their feelings/memories/connections/beliefs re: colors.
  11. Altar Setup for August 3rd of 2020’s Full Moon I kept it simple yet nice. I use my windowsill each month so I can charge my talismans, amulets, and my hair feathers by the light of the moon overnight. Since I burned a ritual candle, I just stayed at my windowsill for the duration of my Full Moon Ritual for safety reasons. I have a sweet but hyper puggat dog named Snowy and the blinds in my windowsill are a fire hazard. I always have a ritual candle. This time around I lit sage for home cleansing because I learned about it in a prior lesson in this course. This was my initial time using sage, however, and it was sage I harvested and dried. I attempted to burn it in heat-proof glass candle holders. The smell was wonderful but the sage would not stay lit. I later learned that it is best to spread the sage out so I found seashells to place the sage in. I offered a gratitude prayer. Sometimes I engage in candle magic of a protective or of a healing nature. I will inscribe sigils or a deity’s name on the candle if that be the case. Sometimes I will leave offerings of home-baked sweet breads outdoors. Sometimes I offer a dance. Sometimes I sing. Sometimes I make a Youtube playlist of appropriate music. 95% of the time, however, I celebrate and worship as a solitary which I prefer. Always prior to Full Moon Ritual, I do an extra special housecleaning in which I get down to the nitty-gritty; do a full scrub down; donate items I am no longer using; and rearrange my home a little bit. I also take a cleansing bath in lavender essential oils. Sometimes I treat myself and my dog, Snowy, to a nice feast. Take care and be well. Peace unto you. Priestess Autumn Penn The preparation for my Full Moon Ritual lasts longer than the actual rite itself for me because I may initiate the extreme housecleaning 2-3 days prior. The rite may take me 10-15 minutes.
  12. Embracing Your Inner Child Exercise August 13, 2020 I thoroughly enjoyed this exercise. As far as toys are concerned, I gathered together a few kinds. A friend gave me his daughter’s box of abandoned Magic the Gathering cards when I mentioned I often regretted giving mine away. I hit the Halloween section at both The Family Dollar and CVS and found a skull bobble-head & small black light bulbs (never had any before). I am looking forward to decorating for Halloween this year. I am considering making homemade play-dough dough ornaments and preparing an easy homemade candy like I did as a Girl Scout. It’s been over 30 years ago so it will be experimental for sure. As far as letting go more and being playful, while walking I gathered some rocks and then cleaned them in alcohol/allowed them to dry/and painted them in dark iridescent hues. I also painted some Halloween sun catchers. I printed out more coloring pages. Lastly, I recalled while reading the assignment how much I used to relish picking dandelion heads, Queen Anne’s Lace, violets, and clovers and pressing them. Therefore today while walking my sweet dog I gathered a few dandelions for pressing. I made a unicorn mask simply out of whim. I bought a box of unicorn Little Debbie cakes for my neighbors and noticed as soon as I was giving them the box that there was a cute unicorn paper pattern on the back of the box. I kept it, colored it up a bit with solar crosses and a heart, and stitched it onto my Indy Covid mask. I've made other masks using felt. Thank you for your time. I hope you are faring well. Peace unto you. Priestess Autumn Penn
  13. Chakra Meditation Via Coloring August 7, 2020 Autumn Penn I chose two coloring projects for chakra alignment meditation. I found both to be helpful and enjoyable. 1 The Root Chakra (Red) My interpretation of a balanced Root chakra = Feeling grounded/experiencing financial stability/ being ‘rooted’ in place/having a healthy spine and proper posture. While meditating, what I determined I should do to better balance my RC = Stop ordering Doordash and stop buying expensive coffee. Otherwise, I am a successful budgeter. Additionally, I have time right now to update my resume and I should do so to prepare for the future. I am fine with money at the moment but I need a plan for a part-time job after my 401 K payment runs out. Also, my Yoga Teacher Certification classes are due to commence. 2 The Sacral Chakra (Orange) My interpretation of a balanced Sacral chakra = Being able to express one’s sexuality & creativity freely and safely/having a healthy reproductive system. While meditating, what I determined I should do to better balance my SC = I am in my mid 40’s and The Change has commenced. I am healthy and I am creative and I don’t see the problem with my waning desire. I feel that it has been replaced with deeper concerns in life. It remains but my mind has changed & I am much pickier because I am interested in one's mindsets and daily habits as opposed to one's physical appearance. My logic and wisdom are now more active in my life. 3 The Solar Plexus Chakra (Yellow) My interpretation of a balanced Solar Plexus chakra = Possessing a well-functioning GI system/learning to manage anxiety and depression. While meditating, what I determined I should do to better balance my SPC = Follow my physician’s restricted meal plan and take my colon & my pain meds because everyone has a challenge. Continue doing yin yoga and hatha yoga. Practices from both spirituality and science will be required to control my digestive disorder and I fully commit to them. 4 The Heart Chakra (Green) = Actualizing one’s ability to unconditionally feel love/taking good care of one’s heart and the nearby chest cavity. While meditating, what I determined I should do to better balance my HC = In life, carry the good and leave behind the bad. Focus on my dog, my solid friends, my good family members, and my spiritual community. Don’t focus on problematic persons. Release the experience of them. 5 The Throat Chakra (Blue) = Freeing up one’s power of voice but without causing harm to others unnecessarily/controlling any disorders of the throat/proper hydration While meditating, what I determined I should do to better balance my TC = not respond at all to the hood thug men in my area. No reply is good. Silence holds great power. I should continue to sing and to write/recite poetry. 6 The 3rd Eye Chakra (Violet) = Honoring one’s own intuition and inner wisdom/trusting one’s innate instincts without being swayed by another While meditating what I determined I should better do to better balance my TEC = I feel I should continue to trust myself and any dream insights I receive. 7 The Crown Chakra (White) = Connecting to The Divine Energy by whatever name(s) or lack of name one so chooses to call The Divine Energy/having faith that one has a purpose for being alive/knowing that one should control what one should and leave what one cannot control to The Divine Energy/knowing that one is valuable like all other living beings and that, “We are stardust.” While meditating, what I determined I should do to better balance my CC = Let go of the political climate. Let go of the race war. Let go of the gangs acting up in my area. Let go of all negativity I have nothing to do with, that I cannot change of my own accord, and that I did not cause. Vote by mail ballot. Remain out of heated disputes. Stay safe. Be quiet around the gang men. Prepare for the future and a possible relocation to a safer area. Gain more life skills. Be prepared for the possibility of self-employment. Pray. Meditate. Be happy. Drink a hot cup of chocolate tea with sugar and coconut milk while listening to Ensiferum or Nox Arcana. Thank for your listen. Be well. Peace unto you. Priestess Autumn Penn
  14. Telepathy Exercise with Shapes and Color Autumn Penn August 7, 2020 I finally completed this exercise; however, I had to bypass a few steps due to my friends either working too many hours or being underemployed and consequently emotionally overwhelmed due to the Covid right now. About two months ago, I posted on Facebook that I needed to complete this homework and thus I needed 2-3 willing participants. I explained that the exercise would be like the scene in the movie Ghostbusters I but without the flashcards and the electric shock if either party (the sender or the receiver) failed. Time continued to move on like it happens to do and everyone was still overwhelmed. Finally it came to me that I could try this exercise in a different way. Therefore, I selected my 3 most intuitive friends for this project. I used the following friends as receivers: one who is a professional tarot card reader; one who is a Death Witch; and one who is an Astrologist. I opted to use the shape that is a protective sigil in my religious system (the Star which some also refer to as the Pentagram representative of Earth/Air/Fire/Water/Spirit) along with my favorite color (a bright blue). Because everyone in general seemed so stressed and somewhat sad, I chose to visualize sending verbal messages of hope and happy tidings along with my blue stars. Then, I specifically mentally told each friend that I was wishing for the best for them and that I will love them always. The responses from the 3 of them alarmed me and I took a week off from my homework to process the depth of telepathy. Within a few days, my friend who reads tarot cards messaged to let me know he had crafted an amethyst gift for me and also added me as a character to one of his Pagan Fantasy flash fiction pieces. I was aware that he was an artisan and a novelist but I was not expecting this reaction from him. Our bond is stronger than I had realized. We are soulmate friends for life. My Death Witch friend is also my neighbor and we began waking up near the same time suddenly. We were laughing about it and I reminded her about the Facebook post and I told her I had sent her the blue star. She suggested I try a telepathic Go Away Message with a correlating color and complementary shape when we walk to the store together on unwanted, pesky suitors and on scary, aggressive panhandlers and see if it works. My Astrologist friend started sending me jokes and memes. The odd occurrence about this is he only sends them on days my anxiety is high. He and I had already had prior telepathic experiences in which I would be worried about him, contact him to check on him, tell him I was worried and could not relax until I checked in on him, and he would admit he had not told anyone he was ill. I learned from prior experiences that I receive messages properly from other intuitive empaths. I learned from this experience that I send messages properly to other intuitive empaths. The questions that stand for me are, “What about the ‘non-intuitives’? What about the sociopaths? Are only other intuitive empaths able to engage in telepathic communication with other intuitive empaths? If this is the case, does this explain why criminal minds find one another and set up gangs and such? Is it much easier for the same type of mind to telepathically speak to another same type of mind?" Thank you for your time and your listen. I hope you are faring well. I am still learning. Actually, I imagine as human being we all are forever still learning; nevertheless, if anyone has any helpful pointers or constructive criticism I would appreciate it. Peace unto you. Priestess Autumn Penn
  15. Chakra Cleansing: Chakra Chanting with Seed Syllables & Vowel Sounds Autumn Penn August 8, 2020 I have performed chakra cleansing by chanting before. My problem has been that I have had trouble recalling the sequence of the seed syllables on my own. Therefore I decided I would take some time to sit down, to read about the seed syllables, to study their pronunciations more thoroughly, and to create a mnemonic device to remember their order. The online site I am using is called Yoga Freedom and the title of the article from their site I will be referencing is called Chakra Chants: Seed Syllables & Vowel Sounds. 1 Crown None 2 3rd Eye Aum/Om 3 Throat Ham 4 Heart Yam 5 Solar Plexus Ram 6 Sacral Vam 7 Root Lam The good news is that Lam, Vam, Ram, Yam, and Vam are easy to pronounce. They all sound similar to the same sound in the word ‘lawn.’ The bad news is the disagreement in how Aum/Om is to be pronounced. I have a number of books and each expert disagrees with the next expert. I believe some of this may be due to regional, dialectal, and spelling differences; but, I am unsure. Thomas Ashley-Farrand, deceased priest/chanter/teacher, wrote that it is accurately pronounced as “I’m.” Sadghuru chanted it as “Oh-ohm.” Others have and will debate that each of the 3 syllables of Aum are to be pronounced separately and distinctly. It took me about a week to come up with an mnemonic device. Finally I did it. I will be using, “Light victoriously rights your heart again”, to assist me in never forgetting the sequence of the seed syllables for this chant. Thank you for your time and energy. Peace unto you and may you be well. --Priestess Autumn Penn