is reading "Mystery of the Cathedrals" by 'Fulcanelli'.
I became ordained after a long period of indecision. I have spent most of my life studying many religions and beleifs, especially so called alternative ones. I have also bounced around from church to church trying to find something that seems right but none of them ever worked for me. My studies have varied from ancient egyptian/babylon/paleolithic/zoroastrianism/greek/shamanism/roman/mayan/celt and just too many to mention. A lot of my beleif systems are intertwined with ancient myths, anthropology, archaeology, pre-history, and many things I have learned from a scientific perspective as well