The reason is both complex and simple, To come to a understanding with myself and my emotions because I buried them and now they are digging their way back up I have to meet them face to face and embrace them in order tp heal myself first before I can help anyone else. Now that this is out in the open, I'll be spending my days and nights in prayer and in solitude until I have completed this reunification of myself and my emotions to be whole again. How long will this take, I can't say because this reunification process is something that I have not tried before and is filled with potential potholes. If I do come out this a whole person again, then the risk was worth it. Pray for me, the next days, weeks and months that still lie ahead will be a very trying time for me and the outcome is unknown. Rev. Douglas.
